Rebirth, a Baptism of thoughts, of heart, of soul, of you, of i.

Putting down this tonight,
for you, for all of us (you)
We love,
we hate,
we need,
we want.
But all of this is without sacrifice.
We will make a sacrifice (whether of heart or soul)
Create meaning (with our sacrificial slay)
If this comes off as:
a) meaningless
b) fruitless
and/or
c) hopeless
i apologize...
to you (again) i apologize
For all of this (life, living, meaning, hope, death, fate)
is in our thoughts (you)
I hope that i am able to make sense of this tomorrow morning.
There are times/occurences/experiences
that lead me to this
They all lead me to this
the same sad/silly/hopeless/and often romantic
LOVE/SONG/LIFE (i suppose)

Please consider that in all of it (us, you, and i)
we are made to feel/listen/open/digest.
I am not out of mind (and or body/otherwise)
I am this.
I am this.
FOR THIS

I AM!!

with all the gratitudes/hopes that experience (living)
will allow.
yours,
truly
truly,
forever.
joshua

Failing is what....FLAILING!

I didn't log in here to talk of my failing the lemonade diet.
I will try again (soon) but to say the least i have failed.

I got on to mention that:
the crash this train/the garden single will be available to
listen and to buy on itunes starting sept. 23rd.
Which i am very excited about.
We have been working very hard for the next record,
and have around 30 songs that we have recorded for it.
Now the widdling down process begins,
to decide which songs make it and which songs get cut.
I hope that we make the right call.
I need to blog more,
it makes me feel better,
(for some reason)
i with this always
TO YOU ALL MY LOVE!
I love every one of you.
ALL WAYS!
j..

The Master Cleanse or, More Lemonade Please

well,
i understand and know that this is not part of my tour journal.
But nonetheless part of my existence/life/love/etc.
I have recently (after some extensive study/reading)
decided to embark on a journey of internal cleansing.
Such a journey that has been aforementioned "The Master Cleanse"
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Master_Cleanse
I will for 12 days eat/drink nothing more than
Fresh squeezed lemonade with Cayenne Pepper and Real Maple Syrup added.
The benefits (so i hear) are to cleanse your body from toxins.
I know this might sound like a scandal, but i believe it.
I have decided to make a journal of each day through the cleanse,
to non only document my madness, but to have a journal of it afterward as well.
I am excited/nervous.
Today is the first day.
I have no hunger this morning.
But will drink my first glass of lemonade in about a half an hour.
Domination will occur over the next 12 days and i hope to feel better
from the inside out.
Tour has taken it out of me.
But alas i am happy to have arrived home, safe.
with love and always.
until tomorrow,
joshua